Lowering my ego
Earlier today, I said yes when my mother asked if would like to go for Al-Quran classes again. It's been a while since I had formal training in Islamic knowledge, particularly learning the technicalities of perfecting the reading of the Quran. In my pursuit to be near to the deen (religion) again, this opportunity was a truly a blessing. When it was my turn to read the Quran, I read with what I thought, very confidently. I've recently corrected my pronunciation of the 'throat letters' thanks to a friend. That was my energy booster because I thought I improved. Sadly, I was wrong. My first feedback was that I read too fast. My ustazah said to read the Quran slowly, as to appreciate every huruf (letter) of the Surah. That stung; it was like a slap in my face. My overthinking mind started to come and play: " Does she look at me as someone who does not appreciate the Quran?" Throughout the whole time, I was corrected over and over again. &